Tavern of Life

in life...

2012-01-16T23:33:00.004+08:00

If you really want it and really fight for it, you may get it. However, even then you may not get exactly everything and sometimes in life you just have to settle for at least half of what you fought for.

skyrim

2011-11-29T00:44:00.005+08:00

Exams are over!!! (like a week ago)
Have been doing nothing much but gaming

Current game that I am playing:

Really excellent game and very very addictive if I must say so myself

One of the things I like to do in this game is to sit in the tavern and listen to the bard sing.
One of my favourite songs:

Age of Aggression

We drink to our youth, to days come and gone
For the age of aggression is just about done
We’ll drive out the Stormcloaks and restore what we own
With our blood and our steel we’ll take back our home
Down with Ulfric the killer of kings
On the day of your death we’ll drink and we’ll sing
We’re the children of Skyrim, and we fight all our lives
And when Sovngarde beckons, every one of us dies!
But this land is ours and we’ll see it wiped clean
Of the scourge that has sullied our hopes and our dreams

Kind of realise that I have the tendency to blog only occasionally after the end of every semester.
I am suppose to learn driving this holiday but I am soooooo lazy..sighs..
Still, i need to force myself to get this driving thing over and done with....

Now that the holidays are here I am suppose to be running a lot more so that I actually lose weight before the new year~ let's see how strong my determination is i guess..

moving? nah not really

2011-10-24T02:28:00.003+08:00

Have not been updating this blog.
Alright here goes.

I just recently sign up for a wordpress account. I am still trying to find my around wordpress.. I am not very good with things unfamiliar. I suppose to those reading, the question is...Am I then leaving/quiting blogger? Well the answer is no. This blog is strictly for personal use and for bored (?) friends to read. As I have mentioned in an earlier posts this blog is for more than anything, myself.

In this tavern of life I just write whatever I feel like writing letting the words flow through me as I typed them out...explains the haphazard way every post seem to be. Jumping from one point to another.
Anyway, my wordpress will be more about my opinions on stuff or stories etc.. not really about my personal life at all but blogger will still be more about my personal stuff. Furthermore, I won't really bother correcting grammatical error or use better phrases in my blogger account...as i have mentioned I am just typing as the words flow through me.

Anyway, recently I joined a new cca - tchoukball! It is fun and the game/ sports is supposedly designed/invented by someone who wanted to create a sport that would supposedly result in less injury but for some odd reason, I seem to be injured more than ever in comparison to other sports that I have joined. It has been slightly more than week but my little finger has not fully heal...on the bright side the swelling has really gone down.

Ok I better head off to sleep now have a presentation first thing in the morning tomorrow...seriously cant wait to get it over and done with.

nightrunner series

2011-08-13T15:25:00.003+08:00

I am currently on book 2 of the Nightrunner series and I have to say the book is extremely enjoyable!! So much so that I have to force myself to read slower because I don't want to finish the book so quickly but it is so hard to read slowly when the book is this good!!!
This is one of those books that keeps me thinking about the characters, events, the amazing world crafted by the author etc.. long after I have force myself to close the book in order to get my nightly sleep.

practicum

2011-08-04T02:54:00.004+08:00

Five weeks of practicum is over!!! YESSS!! It was not as dreadful as previously anticipated.

Hopefully I will be able to learn from my experience and do better in the future.

I realise that I need to think more about the whole 'teaching' thing especially since I realise that it is actually relatively enjoyable. I need to think more about why I would like to continue teaching and the message I would like to pass to my students in the future. As cliche as all this sound, I believe it is really important and I definitely need to think deeply and seriously about it.

Currently playing or rather finish playing -

Dragon Age 2

AND.....

Dragon Age: Origins

Both are AWESOME game I swear!! I know a lot of other gamers think that DA:O is better but I really love DA2!! I am sure there are some gamers out there who really do prefer DA:O but I can't help but feel that most who claim DA2 is not as fun or great are really just teenagers trying to act cool and follow the supposed majority opinion.

I have completed both DA:O and DA2 and found both game entertaining and fun. They both have their flaws and their plus points and I guess as to which game is better....well ultimately it boils down to personal opinion.

Will be playing this game soon, I just bought it a few days back...

ALICE : madness returns!

Book that I am currently reading...

Luck in the Shadows, book I of the Nightrunner series! It is a super exciting fast paced fantasy story. I just seem to get out of the historical fiction or fantasy genre when it comes to books....and yet I like to delude myself into thinking that I am well read...sighs..delusions delusions...

kengo =(

2011-06-14T03:02:00.004+08:00

Monochrome Factor-
It was a really interesting manga that had a super nice twist at the end. I love it when the bad guy was not just another...'I want world domination' type of bad guy..but seriously, why the hell did my favourite character have to die!!! I mean I am ok if it is like those tragedy genre where one of the main dies or something but the manga was not even under the tragic genre and no one except my favourite character died!! so depressing...KENGO!!! criesss!!

Here's a tiny picture of him..hehehehe

His basically the 'idiot' of the group always getting bash up by the other characters and also considered the weakest. Hahaha Although surprisingly when he lose control of himself he seem to be one of the strongest...sighss I really like this character..
I always end up liking characters that play second fiddle and that no matter how hard they try they can only improve but can never be better than the main character or other more significant characters...reflect my own position in society i guess.

One of those trivial thing that I like to rant about...

Anyway..

Two more weeks of holiday before my practicum...sighss

I am such a lazy person that I never really complete any of my so call holiday aim....yet another holiday about to pass without anything concrete done..life..

Was really looking forward to the Art Science museum but when we reached there it was closed for a private event...what the hell they did not even have the courtesy to inform us their site..

Can't say I really like Marina Bay Sands...it just reminds me that Singapore is truly becoming a playground for the rich leaving commoners like me behind..depressing really..

BUT

I really did enjoy my experience at TWG. Their tea menu was really extensive!!! I ordered Camelot tea and the smell was so rich....no pun intended

All in all it was an enjoyable day with friends!! Whats life without them...i am not being sarcastic..

if u have a minute

2011-05-27T00:08:00.004+08:00

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

Somewhere Only We Know is a song originally by Keane
Love it when Darren Criss / Blaine sang this song in Glee!! I have to say Blaine singing this song to Kurt was like my favourite part of that episode.. Seriously I love it whenever the Warblers performs mainly because I usually like a cappella version of songs. I know this song was not done totally based on a cappella but it is still done very well nonetheless!!

Malacca & HK

2011-05-25T20:46:00.007+08:00

Almost a month of holiday has pass...when do time zoom pass so fast when it is the holidays.

Short update:
went to Malacca with the girls and my sis. The san shu gong ice white coffee drink was epic and awesome!! love it!

Was able to fulfil my dream of riding a white horse at Malacca!!! Looks cool on TV and freaking scary in reality!

Went to HK after my malacca trip!!!

HongKong!!

Disney Land was definitely the best!!! Found the history museum interesting too!!!

I have to say one of the not so great experience was having a buffet on the boat...kinda make me feel like puking and I did not eat much either. Though I have to admit the scenery was nice

Currently super hook on this Korean Drama

Dong Yi

Seriously as I was watching this show and how the rival concubine use thousands of methods just to remain in power makes me wonder if that position is really all that worth it. Wonder why people torture themselves for power and even when they get it worry themselves to death that they will lose it.

Anyway,

Love reading through my old posts reminds me of why I often try my best to keep this blog updated. It records part of my life which I may have forgotten and besides it is interesting to see how what was so important then is not so now. This blog has been with me a good 4 plus years and it is nice to read my opinions when I was 16! Hahaha I guess more than anything this blog is for myself because I don't keep handwritten diaries -.-

=)

2011-04-27T01:40:00.002+08:00

DONE WITH EXAMS!

exams

2011-04-19T23:02:00.003+08:00

Exams! Oddly enough it is only in Uni that I really hate exams. For some odd reason I was pretty alright with them until I enter Uni. Now I really hate them...which is ironic because Uni is suppose to be more than exams whereas Sec and JC was geared more towards exams...how odd..

I only have 4 paper...but somehow it feels so much more tiring than those days where I hate like 8 papers...so weird..

=/

2011-04-10T03:23:00.001+08:00

Being unable to translate thoughts into words can be very frustrating!!

thoughts

2011-04-07T00:51:00.002+08:00

Finally completed the book Cathedral of the Sea by Ildefonso Falcones. A truly, truly engaging book!! The book kind of remind me of Caleb Williams or rather Caleb Williams remind me of this book. Throughout the book, the injustice faced by the serf or those who are not considered free man is really appalling. Even those of the middle class did not have it good either. As usual the upper class was deck out in luxury while everyone else is starving.. The embedded power structure has not really changed. I don't think there can ever be true equality or true justice...

thoughts

2011-04-01T00:59:00.003+08:00

Excited that holidays are coming and at the same time kinda sad that semester is ending. Will be in year 3 next semester. Why is time passing so fast...so dreadful!! I don't want to graduate so fast...I am one of those who rather just continue with school than start working because to me working is much more of a hell than school. I have cousins who tell me that working is worst than school and I will be like..well yea, I don't need to experience working full time to know that it is worst than school. Well, whatever it is, I am just going to think about the two months of holiday and pray that time will slow down for just this two months of holiday.

words

2011-03-26T01:53:00.003+08:00

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you’ll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I’m meant to be where I am
And I’m gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I’m gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
And I’m gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I’m forever keeping my angel close

Chris Medina – What Are Words Lyrics

Love this song....

think about it

2011-03-13T01:50:00.001+08:00

'My master says, it is the poor who pay for everything' - Umberto Eco in 'The Name of the Rose'

support the printed word

2011-03-06T12:04:00.001+08:00

Support the printed word!! Get the code here - http://readtheprintedword.org/

21 soon

2011-03-05T01:10:00.005+08:00

Will be 21 soon. Seriously, time pass so damn fast. Let's see, so far I have not really accomplish much in life and sadly enough, I am still a freaking procrastinator.

It is true when they say time waits for no man as cliche as it may be. I will soon be, officially at least, an adult.

Still, fortunately enough, I am moving forward....

I am truly happy I got this article job because what started out as a source of income became something I enjoyed, where I can practically write about anything I want. By far the best part time job. It makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside whenever I think of myself as a freelance writer.

It has always been my dream to retreat to some countryside in England and write historical fictions or fantasy fictions or novels about Singapore or historical journals with a cup of coffee for company. Ok. I lied. It was not always my dream but recently, I realise that perhaps what I have always wanted was to be a writer. I love music, art and the written word because more often than not they seem to take me to another world. I can't compose music and I definitely can't draw/paint.(I am only referring to Fine Art) When I mean draw/paint I meant those lord of the rings standard not some anime picture. In other words, the only thing left for me to use as a tool for escaping a pretty mundane world is while, writing.

"Fantasy is escapist, and that is its glory. If a soldier is imprisioned by the enemy, don't we consider it his duty to escape?. . .If we value the freedom of mind and soul, if we're partisans of liberty, then it's our plain duty to escape, and to take as many people with us as we can!"
-J.R.R Tolkien

I may still be far from achieving my dream of writing and publishing novels but hey, it is a start.

Please save the printed words and buy books instead of reading them off the net. You can buy them as gift and presents or for your own enjoyment. =D

the mask we wear

2011-03-03T00:03:00.003+08:00

Let us continue with this masquerade~

Finished with my communication presentation and I am feeling so much better now. Feels good to get things done one at a time. I shall persevere! =D

old book

2011-02-28T21:49:00.002+08:00

Today Whitehead my literature lecturer took out this really old book of poetry (19th century I think) and I felt such awe for it. Never really seen such an old book before....somehow looking at an old book up front and personal feels very very different from looking at an old book behind a glass casing in the museum.
Pretty sure the class felt the same way too. Everyone seem so awe struck when they saw the book.

Definitely one of the most interesting lit class ever.

what should I do

2011-02-27T23:43:00.003+08:00

Don't be so careful that you never get anywhere-lyndize taylor

Sighs, what I should I do. I hate decision making..or rather I hate tough complicated decision making.

run

2011-02-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

went running = feeling great =)

time to think

2011-02-20T19:32:00.002+08:00

Today is one of those days where I just don't feel like doing anything. I have a lot of things to do, like really a lot not just school work but I am feeling so unmotivated that I am just wasting hours surfing the net.
Will be going out later tonight and that's a plus point! =)

Went for an Interview on Saturday. I often wonder where do people get all their energy from. Doing so many things and being so upbeat about it. I am simply amaze...fine I am freaking envious!! Give me that energy and positivity!!!
Ok, I think not running for about two weeks is taking its toll, I am starting to feel lethargic..bad bad! I feel like signing up for a boxing class or zumba or something. Hmm...

H.Z

2011-02-13T01:53:00.000+08:00

"What struck me as I began to study history was how nationalist fervor--inculcated from childhood on by pledges of allegiance, national anthems, flags waving and rhetoric blowing--permeated the educational systems of all countries, including our own. I wonder now how the foreign policies of the United States would look if we wiped out the national boundaries of the world, at least in our minds, and though of all children everywhere as our own. Then we could never drop an atomic bomb on Hiroshima, or napalm on Vietnam, or wage war anywhere, because wars, especially in our time, are always wars against children, indeed our children."
— Howard Zinn (A People's History of the United States: 1492 to Present)

wth

2011-02-12T18:09:00.001+08:00

I hate it when I did not spend my Saturday fruitfully!! I woke late and somehow spent my Saturday afternoon sleeping again!! It is not like I was tired it was just that sleeping on my bed feels so good. Now that is nearing night, I am going out. Argh! Seriously there goes my Saturday!

random

2011-02-10T23:57:00.003+08:00

Apparently, when you actually have a social life or simply friends you actually do feel a little bit better and a little bit happier. I think because humans are just naturally not meant to be alone.

I like this quote I remembered from some show. Honestly, I did not like that show. The quote though was memorable
"Happiness is only real when shared"

Today's lit lesson was surprisingly fun. Have not laugh so much during Whitehead's lesson. Some of the things talked about were really interesting more so than the previous week. Somehow, I am secretly glad that the sem is getting busier...makes me feel alive. Heck the idea about rushing through life. I like feeling busy, always having something to do somewhere to go. Enjoying a small reward like bubble tea. etc...

On another note, I have been thinking about what Rahil said about libraries and independent bookshops closing one by one. It is really sad. To me an electronic gadget can never replace a book. There's a reason why I choose to print my notes or buy books instead of reading them off the computer. Holding the book in your hand is truly different. It is truly hard to describe this feeling many have tried but somehow I still feel that their words are not enough to truly express how I feel. Perhaps one day I will find the words.
Contrary to popular belief, I don't think you need to belong to the older generation in order to appreciate/love books.

Looking forward to Saturday. Yes, I am still so ever glad that I have Friday off.

quote

2011-01-31T22:09:00.002+08:00

"It's impossible" said pride.
"It's risky", said experience.
"It's pointless", said reason.
"Give it a try", whispered the heart

recently

2011-01-30T22:50:00.003+08:00

I have been thinking alot lately... I can't help but feel that my uni life is truly spiralling down to almost nothingness...alright, fine maybe not that dramatic. I truly do admire those uni students who are able to work part-time or safe enough money to contribute sponsoring themselves to overseas experience instead or relaying 100% on their parents money.

Seriously, school, club activities and part-time job. Where the hell do they fine all that energy and motivation? I wish i had that extra force pushing me to do more than going to school.

Saturday green club nature walk was a success! We finally got around doing the nature walk and that's great! Thankfully it only rained after we were out of the nature reserve so it was not too bad...yes very thankful indeed!

Nature walk~

On another note, the weather has been pretty good. I like cold weather. But honestly, I do miss the sun a little.

I am truly looking forward to next week with only two days of school~

not too soon

2011-01-23T01:22:00.002+08:00

Haha so apparently my GPA improved lolsss not much...but still improved. Although, I am totally not satisfied with my current GPA but whatever.

Went out with the JC pals today! It was awesome, truly awesome! They are as funny as ever...lolss Unfortunately, I could not stay out that late but am truly glad I met them today. Always forget how much fun and laughter I have with them.

I hate it when I judge people too soon. I should seriously give myself more time before I judge someone.

1st week of sch 2011

2011-01-16T13:31:00.003+08:00

Down the Melakan river. I do miss the holidays already...can't wait for Chinese New Year!

I can't help but feel that whenever one hears the words, "YOG sux", it is likely to be muttered by someone from NTU. YOG seriously screw two of our semester time and now everything is still somewhat messed up. The fact that FPO sux doesn't help either.

First week of school had been almost laborious, dragging myself from one place to another. On the bright side, I only have one morning lesson. It is so depressing to squeeze with everyone else on the train early in the morning and looking at everyone somewhat aimless and expressionless face. Perhaps that's why it seems easier for me to read my readings on the train for it seems a better option.

Having the long weekend is truly awesome. I have decided that even if I can't make it for GSS or instep, I would still try and convince my parents to go somewhere further this year at least langkawi or something. Unfortunately my uncle is going to Europe end June because my parents thought of actually following them and that would be hell awesome. But because of that 5 weeks shit that is now not possible.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION

2011-01-06T16:48:00.003+08:00

New Year Resolutions

-lead a healthier lifestyle
Don't really like eating fruits so I am gonna make them into juices instead. I have already gotten my fruit blender hahaha can't wait to make first cup of fruit juice!

Sleep earlier and wake up earlier! Drink more water!
Exercise more frequently, will perhaps sign up for a gym membership..

-be more organize (very important!)
especially with regards to my finance and school related stuff
re-decorate my room, clear my wardrobe..
- freaking get my driving licence!
-definitely attempt to get better GPA...results unfortunately determine too many thing and can't be ignore
-try something new & go somewhere I have never been before
Maybe take up piano lesson? or perhaps just try snorkeling or horse ridding? try bungee jumping?... and perhaps go some place that I have never been before like say, langkawi? hahaha not sure
If i am lucky enough maybe an exchange programme?
-read more books and not just those that I am assigned to read
-get a photo album!
realise that photo album somehow feels more personal than simply uploading the pictures on to the computer
-get involve in more activities and not subject myself to mundane routine
-spend more quality time and appreciate my family more
-be more appreciative of people around me as well, especially close friends
-learn from previous experience and mistake....learn from future mistake as well
-keep the optimism up!!! =D

Most importantly!!----STOP PROCRASTINATING!!!

let's hope I can at least achieve most of my new year's resolution

new year

2011-01-05T15:04:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!!!!!!!
Can't believe it is already 2011, I hate how time flies so freaking fast. Had a great long holiday at M'sia. Went to KL before heading down to Malacca. Decided to extent our stay in Malacca because it was simply not enough. Had a truly great time with the family there!!

2010 had been a rather normal year for me the first half of the year was rather interesting while the second half of the year was just plain. And so I promised myself that for the new year, I would hopefully not experience that boring phase of the second part of 2010. Still, I learnt a lot in 2010.

With a new year comes a new year resolutions!! Hahaha resolutions that I more often than not did not fulfil but still they are fun to write.

Was blogging half way when Yabi announced that the timetable is out. Thankfully, this semester timetable looks pretty good with only one morning lesson and a four day week. By far, the best timetable I had with last sem being the worst. Having lesson every morning is truly and really exhausting. Not to mention morning lesson is really irritating when you have to rush with everyone else. I am glad that 2011 is starting on a good note.

X'mas

2010-12-25T02:51:00.006+08:00

Merry X'mas all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

Hahaha can't wait to tear through the presents when I come back from KL!! XD

The day My sister and I went to the Pompeii exhibition~

I took alot of pictures but as usual I don't see the need to post all the pictures and besides I am truly lazy..hahaha

YESS going to KL in a few hours time!! Hope to see the new year fireworks in Malaysia..I am pretty sure there will be one...

kl soon

2010-12-24T00:11:00.003+08:00

KL soonnnn like finally!!! Can't wait to get out of Singapore!! =D I have to admit I kind of hate packing..
Meeting the JC friends tomorrow before going to KL on Saturday to eat and shop, watch movie walk walk walk~~~
Better than being stuck in Singapore with pretty much nothing to do.

Hahaha I realise that I kind of like to write in point form when I don't really have anything to blog about...lolss

pissed

2010-12-22T16:55:00.003+08:00

There are days where I really hate that I am in NIE and this is one of those days. Chances are I will have to take Modern India history and not get my jap language and forced to take some boring NIE electives...like motivating pupils? Hahahaha I honestly don't give a damn about motivating them..hmm maybe I need a course about motivating myself hahaha

I think the worst part is the fact that it is my fault that I am stuck with effing boring India history. Hate it when i can't blame anyone else. I guess the best thing to do now is to move on. Life always throws you shit. Laugh and move on!
Fine not always, sometimes life can be pretty good. Best to make the best of it than wallow in sorrow. Somehow, the bad is always more memorable than the good. I wonder why...it is like when I get a C grade for any of my assignment the pain is damn painful but when I get an A for my assignment the joy is not as joyful as the pain is painful....get it?
I guess it is because of expectations. When you get what you expect you feel pleased but not like totally happy but when you get something way below your expectation it really hurts.

Ok am gonna enjoy my holiday and think about all this shit in January. I realise that most if not all of the pain and disappoint I face is always school/grades related....god seriously I think i need a life man.

jap here i come

2010-12-20T03:21:00.003+08:00

K next semester timetable will be shitty but as long as I can ultimately get my Japanese level 1, I will be happy!! Went to watch Tron in 3D last week, it was not bad, love the bike scene!!
Will be going out with my sis to have a look at the Pompeii museum before meeting the gals at tea cozy.
This week looks pretty packed! Can't wait for next week where I will be in KL~~~ shop shop shop and eat eat eat hahahahaa

off to bed!

exams over~

2010-12-17T01:06:00.002+08:00

Alright!!!!!! Exams are overrrrrrrr!! YES! YES! YES!

It was alright I guess. There wasn't really any paper that I despair about...than again there wasn't any paper that I am extremely confident about either. All in all I guess it was just normal...although I have to say my first paper was like freaking haphazard and I had to constantly remind myself not to write haphazardly for the next three paper.

Seriously hope I can do well. Nevertheless, I think I learnt a lot this semester because I finally took the effort to listen to lectures especially history lectures. For the whole of year 1 I did not bother listening to lectures and kept falling asleep...explains the shitty gpa...

Shall enjoy my holidays even though it is only 3 weeks!! Movies, out with friends, quality time with family....ah my kind of life~

cross my fingers and hope I get Jap next sem XD

pls end soon

2010-12-10T23:59:00.003+08:00

two papers down two more to go!!! Jia you!!

Can't wait for the exams to be over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

still hoping to do better than last sem...

Hahaha had a random thought, I was thinking when v.woolf wrote without a structure, it was considered good writing representing the human stream of thoughts...
In exams when we write our essay without structure we are immediately mark down...

hahahaha just a random thought....

pissed..

2010-12-05T02:13:00.002+08:00

Was reading Macedo's poisonous pedagogy and felt really pissed at the past injustice suffered by Native Americans, Blacks, Japanese, Vietnamese etc.. at the hand of the Americans(of course not all Americans)...
Seriously if you read that article you would be freaking pissed too!!
With America's recent action of invading Iraq and all...hmm seem that don't really learnt from their past...sad...

If we do not recognize our humanity in others, we shall not recognize it in ourselves. - Fuentes

M.A

2010-12-03T14:03:00.003+08:00

I hope I won't die for the exams. I have somehow amazingly wasted four days without studying for the exams. Shall preserver and try my super most best than once the exam is over I can truly enjoy the holidays!!!

Was reading Matthew Arnold's culture & anarchy and I have to say this is like my only favourite sentence from the reading...

'Socrates and Plato were talking nonsense under pretence of talking wisdom and morality.'

Ok....back to work before I take a trip to little india around 3 plus.

1wk b4 exams

2010-12-01T19:30:00.006+08:00

Getting essays back the week before exams can be either encouraging or discouraging...
The best thing is to remain neutral and try your best! Jia You all!!

On another note, the play crucible seriously infuriates me!!! I thought after watching the show I won't be infuriated again....sighss guess I am wrong. It is so hard to continue reading when you are so pissed with the characters....

simple thoughts...

2010-11-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

'the power of literature is clear: it can continue to unsettle us and make us question even our most closely held beliefs' - Eaglestone Robert

It is that power that honestly scares me...to question everything even one's faith, means honestly it seems as though you have nothing to hold on, nothing to anchor you to the ground and that idea scares the shit out of me...

I think English more than a difficult discipline is a scary discipline because it seems to put weird thoughts into your head.....lolsss or maybe it is just me on a quiet rainy night....hmmm
Btw, I meant English Literature....

On another note, I think it is truly annoying when a lecturer forces his answer on you indirectly. Suggesting that his answer is the only true answer, I mean fine he has like way more experience than us. Still....can't he just let us try different ways of answering the question. I mean that's the reason why most of us take humanities right because we are sick of the 'you are either right or wrong' judgement. Plus now that we are in university, can't he just give us thought provoking questions that makes us think rather than freaking throw the answer on us. Thinking for yourself is more effective right...

Despite saying all those 'noble' stuff, I am going to contradict myself and admit that I honestly don't mind if he gives hints and practically throws exam questions on us to better prepare us for the exams. HAHAHAHAH after all we live is sad grade driven , money driven world.
And well I am caught in the grade driven world I hope I won't fall into the money driven part....because the last thing I want to be is a emotionless money making machine.

chocobos

2010-11-21T13:00:00.008+08:00

Have been playing chocobo tower on facebook recently and I really love the chocobo it is so absolutely cute!!!!

presenting fatty chicken!! I have sent it to retirement though...

Presenting Aoi Chicken!!! Aoi means blue. I am bias towards Aoi!! HAHAHA

As most Final Fantasy players would know. Chocobos are very common in Final Fantasy game. I remeber spending close to an hour in FF7 back then breeding a golden chocobo so that I can use it as a transport to reach a place in the game that can only be reached using a chocobo. You must be thinking what's so special about that place. Well it was a very special place becuase that place contains the strongest summon - Knights of the Round.

Chocobos in FF7....ah those were the days...

Chocobo in FFXII - the game that I have yet to touch becuase of school...sighs

looks like we were right

2010-11-16T02:12:00.004+08:00

Today I came back to the conclusion I had years ago...k fine two years ago. Lolsss I make it sound like ten years or something. I am not fit to do literature. As much as I am in love with it, it seems like what my GP teacher told me holds true. You either have the flare for it or you don't and when you don't you have to work your butt off. Unfortunately as is always the case for me, I obviously don't have the language much less the flare for lit so in other words I have to freaking work my butt off. However, being the lazy person that I am, I can only work hard for like a short period before I get sick of it all and just heck. Like now...which explains why I am blogging despite the fact that I have lots of work to do.

Another personal conclusion that I came up with today is that History assignment is so much harder to do than lit but that does not necessarily that mean that one would get a better grade. As mention before, if you have the flare for lit, you can start on the essay the day before and get pretty awesome results but if you start on history the day before (including the readings), than honestly good luck to you brave soul.

Alright I shall stop my lame ranting. All these opinions and lame conclusion are my own. Which have sadly proven itself to be true, at least to me. (I think that made it even sadder lolsss)

Alright off to watch Fairy Tail. It is a pretty awesome anime. Dreading tomorrow's useless lecture. I think I need a social life...anyone care to take me out for spin around town?

The drawing looks very One Piece but apparently it is not...odd.. The man behind Fairy Tail is the same man behind Rave....but the drawing style looks so different.

On a random note, I think that deep down inside people don't really change. We try to but in the end we will go back to being ourselves, the person we are comfortable with. At least that's how I feel. I think that sometimes when we think people change it is more likely that the person we know before was perhaps the person trying on a new identity. Then, again a gradual change does seem possible. Hmmm...oh well whatever too lazy to think about such things.

Heard a quote that stuck with me, not to say I agree with it but somehow it got stuck on my mind the moment i heard it
-' You only feel truly alive when you see someone else dying'

just a thought..

2010-11-12T15:24:00.002+08:00

Saw a few people eating this and decide to finally try it. I love love love love it!!!!!!! So damn freaking soft chewy and nice~ Go try it!!! =)

Lit class was interesting today. The topic discussed was interesting. I kind of agree that Singapore has religious tolerance but there seem to be a lack of religious respect as observed today. It will be great if not only Singapore but that the whole world can move towards respecting rather than simply tolerating each others' religion. If only people can see the beauty and tradition of the different religions that would be an awesome achievement for civilization.

I think it is because that people are so blinded by hate and self importance that there is so much violence, pain and hatred in this world. This I believe starts from believing that your religion is superior to others of failing to see that other religions is just as beautiful and important to them as your religion is to you.

As idealistic as I may sound I do truly truly wish that true religious harmony can be archive in this world.

Peace & Love goes a long beautiful way~

meet up

2010-11-07T23:57:00.003+08:00

Kinda regret not going KL with my parents....

Had a great time with the JC peeps on Firday! Spent about 5hours at Old Town coffee house just chit chatting away. Went to City Square after that to continue chit chatting. Was kind of lazy to meet them at first but after that I really did not feel like leaving. Super fun bunch to hanging out with. I really do miss them and jc days. Alphy kinda force me to relog back into cabal because he is currently playing the game. After about a year I finally relog back into cabal....and man the game has change alot. Don't understand it no more. Now I kind of feel like playing....gah what the hell, shall resist till school holidays. Tp was asking about L4D and i realise i do miss that game too...shall find them and go lan once I am done with exams.

Hate it when my throat feels dry....

no more ftt!

2010-11-04T01:16:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO!! I pass my final theory test!!! Somehow for this week it had been rather difficult to study properly with the test at the back of my mind. Now that it is over I can concentrate better....hopefully that is.
This week feels relatively relaxing. I guess it is probably due to the fact that I have nothing due for this and next week.
However, come to think about it, I am actually very far behind with my readings. After next week there will be 4 assignments due one week after another followed by exams. In other words, I am not very free am I? Sighssss
Alright, better not slack!
Went to watch The Legend today with sis. It was not bad! I am going to try and find the book.

let me do what i like

2010-10-31T21:34:00.007+08:00

Had a good weekend. I admit that I did not study much but it was so much more relaxing. I truly enjoyed the time spent with my family. Went out on both Saturday and Sunday. Thankfully I stayed back in school on Friday with Mary and Alfie to do some readings so in a way I don't feel that guilty.

On a random note I remember my teacher once said that one should study for oneself and not for anyone else. I guess that is kind of true but i guess because I have been doing that for such a long time that somehow I manage to not put as much effort as I can because I only need to answer to myself and that is truly not a motivation to do well. However, now that my results would affect whether we can go overseas or not, I am feeling so freaking pressured. I don't know somehow I worked better when I feel responsible to other people. Odd but yea....

I don't understand why people can't understand that I would rather do something I love than something that gives me more opportunities in the future, like earning more money. I mean, why can't they see that money is not everything. I hate doing things I hate to earn money to buy things I don't really need. For instance, ipad, I mean I already have a laptop. Do I really need an ipad? Do I need a big house when I already have a comfortable home? I mean seriously what is the point of doing say, accounting when I freaking hate it so that I can buy an ipad (just an example, can't think of any other product) when I already have a laptop.

And no I am not referring to teaching. That is not my passion. I am referring to history and English lit. Those subjects are my passion. And what's wrong if taking art subjects only allows you to teach? Honestly, to me at least, accounting, business, science and teaching are all boring anyway. But at least in teaching I get to try my best to pass my passion in that subject to other people. Although after my bond I will probably leave....or not. Have not thought about it yet. I only know I want to pursue history further. (and no, art subjects does not only limit you to teaching, if that was the case, than technically there should not be a shortage of art teachers. Yet, there are and it is the science and maths teachers that are in a way more than enough.)

On another random note, it is no surprise that many young Singaporeans feel less and less nationalistic. Especially so when there's a serious influx of foreigners. I kind of agree with Zi Rui. Nationalism, when one thinks about it is not solely based on pragmatism. Nationalism, to me at least, has something to do with the heart whereas pragmatism largely with the brain.(metaphorical) Perhaps that is why, everyone is bored and sick of the pragmatic reason given - “You want to have a home. Who is going to build your HDB flat?” If we expect Singaporeans youth to be nationalistic based solely on economic prosperity and accepting the foreigners as necessary in a globalize world, it is no surprise that we are suffering from brain drain because no matter how one looks at it, we are brought up on pragmatism. So it make sense right, to migrate overseas for better prospects since Singaporeans and foreigners and the many other PRs get like almost the same privilege here. We might as well go overseas for better prospects since it is technically pragmatic. How do you then make Singaporeans more nationalistic? I think that is tough. Perhaps, a clear line of benefits where citizens truly have more benefits than foreigners to make them at least feel like they belong rather than everyone have totally equal opportunities, where it does not make a difference whether you are a Singaporean or not...

Check this article out - http://www.temasekreview.com/2010/10/30/sm-goh-why-should-i-be-working-for-people-who-dont-feel-they-belong-over-here/

Bought the drama series, Painter of the Wind. Watched a few episodes and I am already so freaking hooked on it. I really, really, really want to continue watching it now!! But...I can't because of school work. Shall save if for the holidays where i tend to go a little mad due to boredom.

My blog post is so not structure and I don't care!! It is my blog not a freaking essay!!HAHAHAHA (although it does seem almost long enough to be one)

trip to little india

2010-10-22T21:12:00.007+08:00

This week has been crazy! I think I still don't like 8:30am lesson I am fine with 9:30am but 8:30am is really crazy. It just exhaust me. Plus every since Wednesday, I was travelling back and forth to the driving centre....tired tired tired. Piles of readings and work to be done as well and this haze is just totally making it worst. Plus some annoying people makes it worst too. plus the fact that I was pms-ing made it all the worst. Don't mean to offend anyone. Please understand I was pms-ing =(

That aside had a great time in Little India last Saturday morning with aiman and my sis. Went to eat breakfast followed by a trip around little India. Fun~

Got a beautiful key chain from velvet. The amazing thing is that it was not bought but that she made it on her own. How freaking awesome is that!

work overload

2010-10-10T23:39:00.002+08:00

I think I am going to die from work overload!!!!

bless

2010-10-02T15:26:00.000+08:00

thinking

2010-10-01T20:19:00.003+08:00

I have been thinking lately....
Isn't if funny how many poets and novelist kill themselves? I remember seeing this statistic once in Reader's Digest when I was in secondary school where poets have the highest suicide rate followed by artist then novelist. I can't help but feel that those passionate about literature always turn out somewhat depressed in the end
I wonder why...could it be that they know that the world has a lot to offer, that they should truly live their life, that there is a need to find that path, a deep feeling within you telling you that there's more to life than this routine? Only to discover day after day that you are still in this routine, that you have not found your path, that you have not tried things you want to try that in the end you are living your life pretty much the same as before you discover the beauty of literature and the philosophy it has to offer, that you are truly limited. That in the end the want/need to truly live engulfs you, turning to darkness and you realise that everything is hopeless and you kill yourself. Which kind of makes you think...is it better to be aware or ignorant? Is ignorant a bliss or is ignorant stupidity?

Maybe I shall stick to history and continue searching for answers to the past that honestly no one cares about other than me and those curious about the past.
Isn't it interesting to look at an old painting or pictures or buildings and wondered....how it was like to live then? Hahaha and yes it was that thought that made me love history even though many find it useless and boring and whatnot
Somehow history is not as scary as literature...and of course not as powerful
I think it would be great to be able to write historical fiction! Yes, perhaps the best is a blend of both history and literature. Then again, these two have always been somewhat intertwined

I kind of understand why many literature people turn philosophical because perhaps like what my lecturer say, literature is philosophy. On another note, I think it is kind of sad how in all of us there is a set of believes or ideals/ideas that we have that may actually be very beautiful but can't be expressed well. That in the end it is only those who are eloquent are admired for their views. I have a friend who lives by her own sets of philosophy that are actually very interesting and beautiful....i think it is sad how sometimes we are shy and embarrassed to share our views. I am glad I surround myself with friends who reminds me to be human. Heck, even I regret sharing my views sometimes because I am afraid that people think that I am trying to act smart when actually I just feel strongly about it and find it so very hard to keep it within me.

"I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life.To put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I had come to die, discover that I had not lived."
-Henry David Thoreau

b-day tea appreciation

2010-10-01T18:15:00.005+08:00

Every week pass freaking fast. I hate the fact that the week pass so fast. I can't help but feel that making time feels very impossible.

Did not really accomplish much this week as in work wise. Hahahahaha I think it is kind of funny how we went from giving other people nicknames in Secondary school to giving each other nicknames in uni.

Met jacq & gil this week for awhile. It was good to just be able to chat, even if it is for a short while with old friends.

Celebrated RuC's birthday on Monday and had Tea Appreciation on Wednesday! It was awesome! Hahahaha damn it i feel so lazy to type more. ok end post!

Played with this in school. Not sure what it is call.

Tea Appreciation! And yes the tea is free so are the cookies! =)

why oh why?

2010-09-26T21:28:00.004+08:00

I enjoy doing literature homework more than I enjoy doing history homework....why oh why cruel world???
This should not be the case. Alright shall go back to writing my poem that is due on Tuesday.
I seriously don't think it will turn out good.
After which I shall attempt at rediscovering my love for history. I think Southeast Asian history is killing my love for history bit by bit. It is so utterly boring. Despite being a Southeast Asian, I hate SEA history! I know that should not be the case, but that is the freaking case!

We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for. - Dead Poets Society

Yesss I do love this quote very much and wish to share it with people through whatever medium I have.
If I have the time I will dedicate a post on my love for history since this seem to be dedicated to lit.

sch sch sch

2010-09-18T23:45:00.004+08:00

It is only the second week of school but I already feel so damn drowned in work!!! Club fair next week, presentation next week, I have to post some lit thing on blackboard by Tuesday and of course do my freaking readings!!! Yesss the readings are crazy....fine the readings have always been crazy actually. Thing is I want to do well so I have to actually read the readings but there is so much! Especially history. I have three thick stacks and that is not even half the module! Not forgetting lit where books and other readings are included....sighssss crazy crazy much!
Okay, shall stop ranting and start doing my work....
At least, I am doing something I love...that is Lit and History.

I just don't understand those people who do things they dislikes. They delude themselves with reasons to continue doing whatever it is they dislike convincing themselves that it will eventually earn them more money. If you think about it, most of us. even if we earn more money, we tend to buy things we don't really need. I guess in a way it is like a vicious cycle where you do something you dislike so as to earn more to buy things you don't really need so as to ultimately push the country's economy.

Ok! time for some irony!!!
Hahahaha went shopping and bought myself a Harajuku perfume!!!=)

small & compact XD

1st wk of school

2010-09-12T22:58:00.004+08:00

School has started and a week has pass. Have to do better this semester if I want to go for the Global Summer Studies or instep. I have to go overseas while I still can. Problem is, I am afraid that all this enthusiasm for studying will die out as the weeks pass and I will go back into the routine of procrastinating.
Modern Asia history turned out rather interesting. Somehow Dr Wang seem better this semester than last semester. SEA history is boring...haha not surprising. SEA has like the most boring history after Africa. Not including Egypt which is in the Africa continent.
American lit was surprisingly not as boring as I thought it would be. I guess the major thing going on this semester will be Nike Run, Green Club stuff, possibly grading and of course the all important exam!!

Went to Mariam's house today. It was fun!!! Time always pass so fast when I am in great company!!! Went to City Square with my sis after coming back from Mariam's house.Bought a pair of Emporio Armani spects. They were having a discount and I got it at a rather cheap price!! Don't really like my Maybeline mascara so I switch to Majolica Majorca. Hopefully it is better. Spent alot today sighss I really need to spend less!!!

Haha a Cat bento!!

Would you eat this???
Hahaha I would definitely not....it look so gross.

Shall try my best to update this blog but now that school has started it will be harder to find the time to update.

quizzes

2010-09-05T17:17:00.002+08:00

Was kind of bored, so I decided to take a few quizzes

Your Learning Style: Expressive and Tenacious

You love to learn about new cultures, ideas, and theories.

You Should Study:

Anthropology

Counseling

Education

Ethnic Studies

Foreign Languages and Literature

History

Literature

Music

Philosophy

Eastern Religion

Hahaha looks like I am on the right path. Nothing seem to interest me more than History and Lit. Liked the Humanities subjects ever since I was in secondary school. Too bad I am not able to do it exceptionally well now.

Teacher's Day

2010-09-05T15:44:00.004+08:00

Received a Teacher's Day gift from my tuition kid. At least I felt this wish was real not like the one me and friends just go around wishing each other Happy Teacher's Day without really teaching anyone.

My first Teacher Day's gift!! Super happy to find chocolate inside!! Hahaha yea my favourite indeed.

More importantly, my tuition kid actually did improve a lot especially in Maths and Science. I find it easier to teach Math and Science than English...

Global Warning

2010-09-04T16:24:00.004+08:00

Just watched a Documentary on global warming called Global Warning. It just made me emo. I can't really remember the details, but the earth alternates between hot and cold every few thousand years or so. According to calculations, the earth is suppose to be cooler now but instead temperature are rising and one of it's major contributing factor is human activities.
Despite all the campaign to encourage people to go green, not many people are doing it. Yesterday, I went to NTUC to buy some groceries and I saw many people still carrying plastic bags, I was like the only one bringing my own bag. For me what made me try my best to go green, though it may not be successful all the time, are the documentaries and photos that shows that the earth is really in danger. Unfortunately, for some people despite knowing and seeing the damaging effect global warming have on earth, they still continue on with their usual wasteful lifestyle saying that even if they were to go green, it will just be one person and that they can't possibly make a difference. I seriously hate that excuse, seriously can't this people be more mature, take the responsibility and make the effort. I am glad to say that for those of us who actually do make the effort, though we may not be successful all the time, are responsible and know we can make a difference no matter how small it is. As for those who still think they can't make a difference, I am truly sorry that you have such low esteem.

Global Warming affects nature and we, humans are part of nature.

I don't want to start sounding like a preacher here but you get the picture. So let us try our best to do whatever we can. =) I have to say for me the hardest would be to drink and not use a straw. Sometimes, using a straw is more hygienic.

Daughter of Evil -- English Subs

2010-09-03T16:06:00.003+08:00

Remember the Vocaloid I was talking about, here are two videos of it. I found the story interesting.

First

Second

This is not the correct order of the video but I found this two to be the best so I only post this two.

*Spoiler
The second might be confusing for those who have not watched the correct order of the video. In the first video the evil princess was executed but appeared unharmed in the second video. Basically, it was her servant , who look exactly like her that took her place at the guillotine.

Geylang/ series

2010-09-02T23:33:00.006+08:00

Went to Geylang today for the Hari Raya Bazaar. I usually go once a year to hopefully feel the Hari Raya feeling. This time my aunt and uncle came along as well. It was not a bad trip mainly because it is not that crowded. It is not as crowded as usual which might not be good for the stall owners as it just goes to show that business might not be that good? Then again today is a Thursday. The crowd will probably come pouring in on Friday and Saturday night. Heard an unpleasant comment while walking. There was this Malay guy who after seeing my aunt, uncle and mum commented that 'cheena also celebrate Hari Raya ah?' Seriously, what an unnecessary comment by a typical matt. His comment just reminded me of the many reasons why I don't bother dating matts no matter how hot he is....if that is even possible hahahahaha. More importantly this is Singapore what, you don't need to celebrate Christmas to go Orchard. Okay, bad analogy but you get it.
On another happy note, I got my favourite Ramlie (i think this is how you spell it) Burger!!! Too bad it is only here during the bazaar. Oh, and is it me or did things in the bazaar became more expensive? Drinks used to be $1 to $1.50, but now they are like $2 and other food as well...

The most tragic news of the day is.... I saw Mr Teh Tarik but I was too freaking full to even drink teh tarik!!! RAWRSSS how freaking tragic is that???? I heard about Mr Teh Tarik from Alfie i think......but I have never seen the shop before and to finally be in front of it but too full to drink...sighss..
I am so happy that CSI came and became popular which resulted in the increase in this criminal investigation sort of series. Before CSI, there used to be boring series like 90210, OC and some other chick flick sort of series. I actually even gave ugly Betty a try, thinking it would be different and interesting. Unfortunately, it was only interesting for like the first few episode then it spiral down. Truly, glad that CSI came.
So anyway, I am here to recommend this two series that I thought really good.
Because I am too lazy to actually recommend, I will just post the pictures. Lolssss

There are other similar genre series that I feel worth a watch as well. They are Bones, Missing, Lie to Me and of course CSI, CSI New York, CSI Miami.
The Mentalist is one that I have not watch but do truly wish to watch one day.
On a random note, Glee (different from the usual genre of show I watch) is surprisingly not bad in fact I do like it although first episode was blah.

interesting

2010-08-29T23:01:00.006+08:00

Tried this cute looking grass jelly drink. What really attracted me was the packaging as for the taste, well, I found it too sweet.

Come little children

Nice song, very soothing...
It is like fairytale on a darker level. Nice~
and no I am not a pedo!!!

completed!!!

2010-08-24T23:54:00.010+08:00

Manage to complete my 1000 pieces puzzle all on my own!!! hahahahaha! Yea, I guess now you kind of know how free I am...

Still, it was fun doing puzzles...I already feel like getting another one.

The initial stage....

The hard part was telling the tress and grass apart. However, I have to say the hardest part was the sky because everything was white and one piece looks exactly like the other...all white.

Still, after much hard work, I manage to finish it.

Ta-Da!!! The end product!!! ^.^

the real thing is always different

2010-08-22T22:42:00.006+08:00

Saw an accident yesterday. I have seen accidents before but this was different and disturbing to me simply because there was like a lot of blood on the road. Ironically, the accident took place in front of the driving centre. The accident was between a motorcycle and a lorry....and the blood obviously belonged to the motorist. Not to sound cliche here but the blood really remind me how fragile human life is...
Met Sarah, Gil, RuC and Mariam on Friday night to supposedly catch CN Blue. It was kind of a last minute thing as I was suppose to meet my JC friends. Anyway, I only manage to catch a glimpse of them and I am satisfied. Hahahaha

On another note, I realise I might as well take Gillian's advice and do my readings during the long retarded breaks. Besides, once essays and projects starts, the time would be useful. I guess the long break don't annoy me as much simply because NIE will always manage to give you super long breaks in your time table. I am just upset that I did not get a four day week.
Have been watching a few YOG matches that are rather interesting hahaha I am somewhat inspire to run again after watching the YOG athletics. Of course, my running will be for leisure. Diving was interesting to watch too although I am sick and tired of watching China getting first...yawns. TKD was ok but not as aggressive as I expect it to be. Football is boring and one I never bother watching. Seriously, soccer is so overrated...

time table

2010-08-20T04:01:00.003+08:00

So I receive my time-table today. I am freaking pissed with it!! I fcking hate NIE foundation office or whoever the hell who came up with this shit of a thing they call time-table. If almost all the lit/hist students can have Wednesday off than why not me too? I take the same freaking subjects too!! I hate the long break hours too but that is apparently common in NIE. Yesss in case if you have not notice we suffer alot and this is just time table...that is why we get paid in the first place.

Sighss..I am not really looking forward to school anymore...Haizzzzzzzz

And please I know lots of people out that who are happy about their time-table just don't rub it in my face and ask about my time-table if and when i meet you...

Sighs it seems a small thing to get mad about...but time-table last a whole sem and now I can't wait for this sem to be over and done with...

hair dye

2010-08-19T06:52:00.006+08:00

I am currently thinking of using Liese hair dye instead of going to the shops to dye my hair. After reading the various reviews on the internet I realise that many of them share the same opinion in which, while the hair dye does cover your hair evenly, it tends to be darker than the picture. I also notice that most of those who coloured their hair using this product seem to have roughly the same hair colour result and that got me wondering as to whether there was any real differentiation in the colour. My sis have use the product before and I have to say her hair does look healthier as compare to when she use other brand to dye her hair. One thing is for sure, this hair dye is less damaging to the hair as compare to other products.

Nevertheless I think I am going to give this a try. I am not sure if Prettia is different from Liese but they are both bubble hair dye. Anyway, brands and products aside, I am more concern about which colour I should go for. I was thinking of trying Ash Grey but I can't help but feel that I should try that next year instead, just in time for my school practicum. Perhaps I will try a colour from the orange-brown series and if things don't turn out well I can always go back to the shops.

I got the pictures from this site, if you interested you can check it out for yourself
- http://forum.lowyat.net/topic/1122909

The sugar apricot colour looks really nice and I have never tried those orange-brown colour before...hmm..

better sleep soon it is already 7am...

Ghost - 07

2010-08-16T00:52:00.005+08:00

Bought an anime DVD in KL two-three weeks ago. It has been a really really long time since I bought an anime DVD...I think I bought the last one in Secondary 4. Anyway, the story was rather interesting. My sister was the one who chose it for me. Initially, I wanted to buy Pandora but she recommended Ghost-07 and I am not regretting it at all. Apparently, it even won a double-first prize in the 3rd Zero-Sum Comics Grand-Prix, which is very rare.

I can't believe I have to spoil it all by accidentally reading the spoiler...WTH -.- I had to actually force myself to stop searching more about the anime or I am bound to end up reading more spoilers.

Ghost-07

Ah~ sometimes it feels good to catch up on old hobby.

JC/UNI/dolls

2010-08-13T15:14:00.004+08:00

I was reading my previous posts and realise I DO miss srjc days alot. Hahah the stupid things we did the really retarded nicknames we gave people. The encounters with this people. Friday being potato salad day or something because food from that cafe is relatively expensive. Staying late in school to supposedly study. Ah yes good memories JC was really a great part in my life and I am happy to say so are the friends. Currently definitely still in contact with this awesome bunch. I remember going to school to supposedly study even during the holidays so that in reality I can just meet up with my A2 pals and hang around. I remember I did not really mind secondary school ending as we all have to move on but omg...I dreaded the last day of JC life. Still we all have to move on. Now I am seriously dreading the last day of uni life. Every semester that ends brings me closer to the last day of uni which I am totally not looking forward too.
Uni life have definitely been freaking fun too!!! Very very different from JC life. We definitely have more freedom. We can actually bring drinks into the class! I have to say staying over at friends hall creates one of the best memories. I seem to forget the workload. In uni it is really quite bad. OMG...the essays, the presentations, the readings, the tutorial preparation... What often happens is, I would stay in NTU or go to Jurong point with my friends and only reach home around 7pm and I would then rush my work until 3am, sleep and wake up around 9am to prepare for school. That kind of explains why when school starts the days pass by very fast....because I seem to be speeding through it. The only thing I am not really looking forward to in uni is actually the workload...sighs..
Now that I think about it, I swear it is the friends and me wanting to socialise more that actually made JC and Uni life this fun...just my opinion though.

On to a totally different topic. I found this Japaneses like dolls very cute! Apparently it is called a Kokeshi. I have a yellow one as a handphone keychain.

I remember going to expo on a Sunday not too long ago to get popular books that were on sale. The sale was held at one of the expo halls. Can't remember which one. Anyway, they were having a cosplay event there too. I could see that the cosplayers really did put in effort in their costumes. The cosplayers aside, I saw 3 to 4 guys carrying dolls like the one seen in the pictures below. One of them was even combing the dolls hair! The thing is these sort of dolls can be very expensive and so is their costume. I am not trying to be judgemental here but I think these geeky guys really need to get a life. From their appearance, it is pretty obvious they spent more on the doll than tidying themselves. I mean seriously grown guys playing with dolls! Them being on the heavy side is not the problem but they looked rather unkempt...their dolls were definitely in a better condition than them. and I am pretty sure this geeky guys do more than dress their dolls up. I think I am being judgemental....whatever..Next we will have these geeks wanting to marry their dolls like that guy in Japan who married some game character.

By the way, that is real food in that bento.... Apparently, the doll blogs too...seriously WTF!

Here's another one. I can understand if a girl buys these dolls. I mean we all enjoyed dressing barbie when we were little girls. I have to admit these dolls do look more interesting than barbie. I, myself would not mind getting one if I have like extra money to spend. I think it would be fun to dress this dolls up and place them in the cabinet like a collectors item. The thing is, I can't help but feel that there is something seriously wrong for a grown man to be playing with dolls.

a month

2010-08-12T02:26:00.003+08:00

A month more before school begins. I still have things that I want/need to do during the holidays but thanks to my procrastination I have not gone around doing them. The holiday have been really unexpected and somewhat more interesting than I would have expected it to be. Somehow, I manage to escape the routine in which I would often find myself in during my previous holidays, which is to wake up in the afternoon and use the Internet or start gaming well into 4am. But, there are still things that I have not done and it is sometimes as simple as drawing. I do miss drawing but I have really gotten around doing any.
I thought of painting my room too. Glad to say that I manage to finish reading some of the books that I bought. Maybe I will try baking too. Hahaha sometimes doing something as simple as drawing, baking, reading or simply walking in a park (not macritchie!omg that was...let's just leave it at not simple) gives one a sense of peace and happiness. It is only during the holidays that we really get to do these simple things that somehow gives us a sense of peace. That said, I still miss school and can't wait for school to start again. Buying Ya Kun ice coffee, rushing into tutorial classes with my coffee, attending CCA, crashing friend's hall and the Macdonald breakfast!!! Of course although I am not looking forward to it, I guess studying harder is necessary so that perhaps...maybe next year I can go for the overseas exchange programme! Being active in life will actually make you feel alive because I am afraid of falling into a routine and that is scary because routine will in the long run turn to mundanity in which one lose oneself and the motivation to live or even without committing suicide, one is good as dead...a souless body. So people if you are think you are simply going through the mundanities of life, grab a book, pick up a sport, a musical instrument, go for plays or simply visit the zoo/ science centre/ bird park.....just do whatever it is that you like but don't often do. Something that breaks you away from your routine! even a jog or cooking a simple dish might work. Even if nothing exciting or life changing happens, I guess in the end being content in doing the simple things is just as enjoyable.

Mankind’s greatest gift, also its greatest curse, is that we have free choice. We can make our choices built from love or from fear.”
-Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Do what you want/can to make life more interesting, after all it is your choice!

On a super random note, I think, maybe I am going to change my hairstyle. I am definitely dying my hair again, not sure on the colour yet though....should I go for a bright colour since school experience is over or should I go for a darker shade of brown...hmmm tough choices. However, I am currently more concern about the style.

sch experience

2010-08-12T02:16:00.002+08:00

Haha this is kind of late, but this was what I did during the student's art class during my school experience. I really had fun doing this one! Batik painting~ heheheheh

Tekken

2010-08-11T01:01:00.002+08:00

Went to watch Tekken today with my sis after tuition. The show was quite interesting to me and thankfully they cast a good looking guy as Kazama Jin. He looks mixed...Eurasian I think. The only problem I had was that Hwoarang my favourite Tekken fighter, who uses Taekwondo is not in the movie!!! AHHHHHH!! I thought he would be in....I mean he is like the only one who manage to defeat Jin once! Rawrssss

Hwoarang

green trip/ airbender

2010-08-10T00:53:00.005+08:00

Went to Macritchie reservoir and can't say we had a great time there. It was interesting though, to me at least. Having the company of friends helps a lot. It has been quite awhile since I really really exercise. I guess this was kind of my first time doing a nature walk, the only other nature thing I remember doing was the mangrove walk which was seriously worst and a horror. Anyway, we went there to check the place out first before bringing interested people through the walk as part of our green club activity.
The HSBC treetop walk thing was not as high as I expected it to be but still it was worth the walk. I guess the worst part was when a bunch of monkey was in our way...omg that was seriously freaking scary. The lack of water and food did not help either, it really drained our energy and we only completed the walk in 5 hours time. Still, I shall be thick skin and say it was a job well done. Hahahaha Anyway, found out from alfie later in the day that there is short cut to the treetop walk and apparently that is only 5km.

Watched Avatar the Last Airbender today. It was surprisingly good....at least to me. I thought the story to be interesting and I have to say that the banished prince is most interesting. Hope they are making a part 2...I am actually excited for it.

This is kinda a day late but still....HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

I found this year NDP too be alright. Love the old songs...the days when the streets of Singapore was actually filled with Singaporeans and not PRCs and what not. Sighs these people are given PRs so easily, it feels as though Singapore cater to foreigners and the benefit the locals is not much different than the benefits they get as well. All that aside, I hope that Singapore will continue to prosper because as cheesy as it sounds, this is our country, we were born here.

KL

2010-08-10T00:39:00.005+08:00

Had a great time at KL. Did some shopping for the new semester at KL...lots of item were on sale..apparently it was their sale season. Lucky me!

On the highway

view from the hotel

I guess the only unfortunate thing that happened was the fact that I drank about three glasses of coffee on my first day there and got kinda unwell. Still, I had a great time there even though I have been to KL like a thousand times. Waking up to a hotel breakfast, watching movies, eating at restaurants and simply being with my family...ah simple and enjoyable.

tokyo dogs

2010-07-28T00:11:00.003+08:00

My sis bought the drama set for Tokyo Dogs. The show was freaking awesome!! I really enjoyed watching it!! It has been a long time since I watched any Japanese drama. I am glad this was good. And Oguri Shun is soooo freaking hooootttttttttt like totally hot!!! Love his hairstyle in Tokyo Dogs.

Currently watching Zenki.

to the east

2010-07-27T23:45:00.008+08:00

Went on a tour to the east with mariam & alfie. Yes it was one of my most worthwhile Monday since the holidays began. Was suppose to cycle at Changi Village but it rained so we just drank teh tarik and somehow we ended up at Changi museum Chapel. It was an interesting visit.

The 'mama' shop where we got our drink.

The Chapel museum

Seafood Hor Fun at MagicWok in DownTown East. Yes...we ended there in the end. Went cycling after having out lunch.

Had a great and tiring time cycling. Stop by the playground. It was freaking awesome!! There was like no one there. Had the playground to ourselves!!!!!!!! OMG I have to say the playground part was like totally my favorite~

Hahaha bought this key chain at Johore and it was seriously pure coincident that the bunnies match our phone. Lolss

Mine is the pink, my sis is the blue.

Will be going to Malaysia tomorrow!! Have been to KL like a thousand time but still I am glad I am going there...hahaha I am just so sick of staying in Singapore and a visit to KL will help.

shows movies

2010-07-24T02:07:00.003+08:00

Went to Seoul garden with the uni gals and had a really great time even though it was at city square. Went to the movies with my sister the next day. Was suppose to watch either inception or despicable me but somehow one way or another we ended up watching crazies. lolsss well the show was pretty crazy the concept is the same like your resident evil concept. A virus leak, the town gets affected and the government trys to contain it through quarantine only to resort to totally annihilation in the end with the few heroes/ protagonist escaping...but still worth a watch if you like those zombies show.

After which went to some MLM talk. I seriously don't believe in MLM unless you have the time to spare. MLM reminds me of the tme me and gil went looking for a job after our A'levels and the people who called us for a supposed job interview was one of this MLM company..sighs sad much.

Went out with the JC bunch today. Was yet again supposed to watch inception but did not in the end...yea i know right wth...

Did our nails at Malaysia super super cheap!! Express was only RM8!!! Mine is the green I am so in love with the colour!! pretty colour~

Really love this

2010-07-20T01:52:00.002+08:00

Saw this note posted by my friend on facebook and thought I re-post it since it was really inspiring.

What Teachers Make..
The dinner guests were sitting around the table discussing life.

One man, a CEO, decided to explain the problem with education. He argued,
"What's a kid going to learn from someone who decided his best option in
life was to become a teacher?"

He reminded the other dinner guests what they say about teachers: "Those
who can, do. Those who can't, teach."

To stress his point he said to another guest;
"You're a teacher, Bonnie. Be honest. What do you make?"

Bonnie, who had a reputation for honesty and frankness replied, "You want
to know what I make?

(She paused for a second, then began...)

"Well, I make kids work harder than they ever thought they could.

I make a C+ feel like the Congressional Medal of Honor.

I make kids sit through 40 minutes of class time when their parents can't
make them sit for 5 without an IPod, Game Cube or movie rental.

You want to know what I make?" (She paused again and looked at each and
every person at the table.)

''I make kids wonder.

I make them question.

I make them apologize and mean it.

I make them have respect and take responsibility for their actions.

I teach them to write and then I make them write. Keyboarding isn't
everything.

I make them read, read, read.

I make them show all their work in math. They use their God given brain,
not the man-made calculator.

I make my students from other countries learn everything they need to know
in English while preserving their unique cultural identity.

I make my classroom a place where all my students feel safe.

I make my students stand, placing their hand over their heart to say the
Pledge of Allegiance to the Flag, One Nation Under God, because we live in
the United States of America.

Finally, I make them understand that if they use the gifts they were
given,
work hard, and follow their hearts, they can succeed in life."

(Bonnie paused one last time and then continued.)

"Then, when people try to judge me by what I make, with me knowing money
isn't everything, I can hold my head up high and pay no attention because
they are ignorant.... You want to know what I make?

I MAKE A DIFFERENCE .

What do you make Mr. CEO?"

His jaw dropped, he went silent.

out with the gals

2010-07-20T01:16:00.005+08:00

Went out with girls today. Had a great time chit chatting with them. It is just so fun to sit and chat non-stop.

end of se sec

2010-07-19T00:01:00.005+08:00

I have come to the end of my school experience. Both Secondary and Primary have been great. As weird as it sounds I did enjoy my time in both school. Primary was really comfortable and fun because the other NIE trainees was a real friendly bunch and because of them, break-time always seem to end very fast. In Secondary school I learnt a lot..like really a lot. They gave us a run through of the financial aspect, the IT aspect, the CCA aspect and other aspect of what it's like being a full time teacher. I found this to be useful in helping me prepare myself mentally. The teachers were extremely friendly. The humanities HOD actually took time to talk to me about the possible syllabus change even though she actually did not need to make any time for me because it was not in my or her schedule. On the last day, when we went to thank the vice principal personally, she actually invited us in the room to have hear our opinion about our experience. I really felt welcome. The students were not that bad either. I actually had the opportunity to relief a secondary one class and thankfully I manage to control them. Ok fine I will admit it....I did enjoy my time interacting with the students. I have to say that I learnt more in my secondary school experience. Well I am not that looking forward to my next year experience there, at least for sure I am not dreading it either.

On another note I bought a camera!! IXUS 130 canon

sch expericence

2010-07-09T22:36:00.002+08:00

School Experience at Anglo Chinese ( Junior) was actually rather fun. There were three other girls with me which made the whole experience better. Our time table were similar and we click really well. Spent 1 hr 30mins of our break at the canteen talking and time always pass so fast. The principal was friendly and always look so fresh and hyper. The other teachers were friendly too and some even told us their experience with the kids which was seriously hilarious.
My most memorable class had to be the Art class. We were given the opportunity to not only observe but tried out what seem like batik painting. That was really fun and the near the end of the lesson all the kids were gathering around asking why we were painting too. We were also given the opportunity to observe their music lesson which was very different from my primary school days. They have a dance instructor to teach them dancing and another instructor for drama...what an interesting music lesson or at least better than my boring one.
It is also very important to take note of the way one speak to the children. I was helping this 8 year old child with his Microsoft word when I thought I accidentally deleted the picture he drew which was a mouse. And the kid was like, 'where's my mouse?', 'where's my mouse?' and I panicked and accidentally exclaimed, 'Shit!' and realise it and said 'shit' again... Thankfully the boy was too busy thinking about his missing mouse to notice what I said. Like all fairytale, it had a happy ending. Apparently, I accidentally moved the mouse lower down the page..hahahaha so yea, all was well.
There was a kid who actually went up to my friend asking, 'Teacher, you got money?'. Sighs poor kid....the canteen food is really overpriced. I mean seriously, a green tea packet cost $1!! WTH...
There were other funny moments with the kids but I am too lazy to talk about them so I think I will just end here.
I had a great time sitting on the massage chair in the teacher's lounge.
Overall, I have to say that this experience was much better than I expected and I am almost sorry I have to leave.

Next week will be my Secondary school experience, hopefully it brings about the same satisfaction or better. I wonder what sort of experience I will get from observing irritating, self absorbed teenagers.

TKD

2010-07-04T23:50:00.004+08:00

Went for my TKD grading exam today. I was not as nervous as I was when I went for my yellow tip grading..or so I thought. When I stood in front of the judge, I was so freaking nervous that I screwed up and actually have to restart on my own time. The rest of my friends completed their pattern and I could feel them waiting for me to complete mine and I was like telling myself, take it easy don't rush. I was so afraid I would fail because I was the only yellow tip that screwed up and had to redo the pattern. Instead I got one hell of a surprise, not only did I pass I manage to double to a green tip instead of a yellow belt. I was really really surprise because after the first white belt to yellow tip grading I had given up on double promotion and was just aiming to pass.

In other words my next grading will be for a green belt instead of a green tip. I am so happy that school experience (practicum) does not seem as dreadful as before. All I need to do is remember today and I will smile. OMG, I still can't believe it's real....I guess it has been quite a long time since I actually achieve something or rather anything.

Can't wait to finally get rid of my white belt!!

On another note, I realise that while tuition can be easy money, it can get quite troublesome because sometimes the timing is not fixed. I think I might get those small tuition class instead next time because the time is fixed.

Anyway, I really love this song from Chibi-Maruko....it is so nostalgic!! I love the show too and I am glad they are showing it on Animax. The plot is not very heavy or anything it is just about this young girl maruko and it is really hilarious!!
Yume Ippai!!!!!

ponyo

2010-07-02T01:26:00.004+08:00

Watched Ponyo today. Omg! It was simply cute!!! The story was a bit slow pace but I like how it is rather simple. Like the idea of being warm in the house when it is raining heavily outside and drinking tea with what i think is honey. Like just the simple things that make you smile and enjoy. Most importantly...ponyo was just so freaking cute!!! The round ponyo tummy reminds me of my mum Hahahahah so cute!!!!!!!

sentosa

2010-07-02T01:02:00.004+08:00

Went to Sentosa today!!! Woots!! It was freaking fun!!!! Went with alfie, sarah & mariam!

We actually went to underwater world. It was quite fun!!

Went to universal studio...well not really universal studio, we hang around outside. It was amazingly fun and somehow I think better than the underwater world and the funny thing is it was free Hahahaha. It was free and better...interesting.

Hahaha as usual pictures on facebook. =)

responsibility

2010-06-30T23:50:00.005+08:00

I remember there was this one day where I stayed over at my TKD friend's hall. One of them was rather pissed and upset because some of the people who promised that they will come did not turn up in the end. I remember her telling us how tired she was but that she still turn up because she said that she will come. It make sense to me and ever since then when I have given my word to someone that I will turn up for something, I will try my best to do it. I may not turn up all the time, but truth to be told I will always try my best to turn up.
It is funny how she's not my very good friend or anything but somehow what she said really made an impression on me. I agree with her very much. I think that if you promise someone you will be there, you should really try your best to be there. Of course there are times where you won't be able to make it because of other commitments but I really think one of the worst thing you can do is say that you will be free on that day and in the end calling in to say you can't make it.
This may be a small thing but I think when you have given your word you should really keep it. It is really common courtesy and a simple responsibility.
Oddly enough or not, I used to be one of those but after what that girl said on that night, I realise that I should try my best to change, to be a women of my word. Hahahahahaha
Anyway, this post is not directed to anyone just my opinion, based on previous experience as well as based on other people's experience. Like all human I am pretty sure there were times when I am guilty of that as well.

I watched Lie to me today and I like it!! I am liking NCIS too!! Hahahaha it is something like CSI but it is not CSI it is NCIS HAHAHAHAHA XD

Distant world

Got it from deviant art. I think it is very beautiful.

reflection

2010-06-29T02:48:00.005+08:00

I think this has been by far the most busy and fruitful holiday I have ever had. Meeting up with my different group of friends, participating in event and even trying new things like playing the violin. Looking at my schedule, July seem to be a rather heavy month for me with TKD trainings and exam, another convention, meranti training, green club related activities, school internship and of course hanging out with good company. I never knew being busy somehow feels good...maybe this is what they meant by good stress... despite having lots of activities, it is still manageable and actually make you feel alive.

Ever since I can remember I have always been the kind who would not bother with such things..i was the kid who found cca a waste of time. I like the idea of just waking up with nothing to do...hahaha actually I still like the idea of waking up with nothing to do...but not every single morning till the holiday end that will just kill me. My principle in life was easy and probably common, study hard, do well, get into a local uni, graduate, get a good pay that will be able to finance my travel. But when I finally reach NTU or more specifically NIE, i realise I wanted more in life and so life just got a little more complicated for me. Hahaha or so I like to think.

I like reading my previous posts in this blog, I actually realise that I change...my priorities change. To me that it is a good thing because it shows that I am growing as a person and there's character development. My sis was telling me that a good book/show have characters that go through something called character development. A character that is the same from the beginning to the end reflects the failing of a book/show because it tells the audience that the experience that the protagonist went was redundant and that in truth nothing really happen.

Maybe in the future when I read back on this post I will laugh. Hahahahahaha!! well whatever, to be able to laugh is a good thing too! Hheheheheh XD

Ah yes, a simple cup of coffee.

Drinking a cup of coffee always perks me up. =)

closing GK

2010-06-28T01:02:00.005+08:00

I actually did enjoy shopping for formal clothes today...a pleasant surprise. Went for the closing ceremony for the convention this morning. If feels so good to wake up around 7am and actually have somewhere to go. I do love the morning...it is just that more often than not I don't have the discipline to get out of bed.

photos credit to mariam

Hahahaha the word delegate just make it sound so cool. lolssss
I really like the ambiance of the tom & tom cafe. Shall wait for alfie to post the pictures.

GK global summit

2010-06-27T01:09:00.004+08:00

Went for the Gawad Kalinga global summit yesterday and today. It is a three day conference that ends tomorrow. After today I swear whenever I feel that lecture is too long and that I can't take it I will think about this summit. I mean if I can survive this summit I am pretty sure I can survive lectures. I think we sat through 6 hours of lecture. It was not bad though, I did get to learn something and for what it's worth, at least I know more about GK and how it really did help those who are in poverty. They are still on their journey to eradicate poverty but I saw true effort from this people, giving up jobs that paid more for something that is more fulfilling, volunteering their weekends, really admirable. On another note, i think it is sad to learn that some people attend such summit to make their resume more colourful...i mean how idiotic can you be. I hope at least even if you one of those in for a colourful resume, you did feel for humanity and truly want to give back in the future. Personally, I went because I hardly go for such things and I wanted to learn more, to know more.
The whole GK summit started at 9am and ended at 7:30pm. Kind of got lost in NUS for awhile but eventually we made it out and found our way home hahahahaha. Before entering uni I had a dream and now that I am in uni, I forgot that dream. It is dream that I swear every or at least almost every student has....I think it is a dream shared by almost every Singaporean students. Anyway, after talking to Alfie and Christ more about school and stuff, I realise I need to get my priority right yet again, I guess I was a little distracted when I entered uni so it is time to get back on track and of course enjoy uni life!! Woots!

For some odd reason, I could not stop laughing after drinking a cup of tea today, I found almost anything and everything funny....how odd....
Toms Toms (?) cafe was a nice and peaceful place to just drink coffee and chit chat.
I am sorry, but I shall disappear...
Going to this summit with Mariam and Alfie have been great!!! =)

think about it

2010-06-25T03:00:00.002+08:00

JUST WHO WILL YOU BE?

Everyone's life
Is an uncharted course
So go out and live it
Without regret or remorse

As you go down one road
And don't like what you find
Remember it's OK
To just change your mind

Doing only what's easy
Won't break you a sweat
But you also won't learn
Lessons you need to get

The lessons will teach you
What you need to know
To find out who you'll be
And which way you'll go

Will you be a person
Who’s running on greed?
Or will you be the one giving
To people in need?

Will you just collect awards
To put on your shelves?
Or will you help people
Who can’t help themselves?

Think of using your brains
And your talent and youth
To solve difficult problems
To find out the truth

To make this crazy world
A far better place
To make some improvements
For our human race

JUST WHO WILL YOU BE?
That’s the question for you

~ Maria Shriver

The actual poem is much longer. I just took the stanza that really and truly inspired me. The whole poem IS really inspiring but these are the few quotes that somehow speak to me. Well, i better sleep now or I will be late for tomorrows convention on poverty.

Anyway, I got the poem from here: - http://christine-livepassionately.blogspot.com/2008/06/just-who-will-you-be.html

life

2010-06-25T02:31:00.004+08:00

Life

I have seen this picture somewhere before and decide to re-post it.

Morning brings a mystery, the evening makes it history. I guess it kinds of match the picture and I shall state the obvious for my own sake. The morning is like the youth of one's life, where your life is still largely a mystery because you don't know how you will spend it, live it. In the evening, you look back at your 'day', thinking if the process was a worthwhile experience. I guess the evening is always the hardest especially if the people who went through the 'day' with you falls asleep earlier and I guess it gets lonely. In the evening you sit down and think about your 'day', whether it was really a 'day' well spent, a 'day' with few regrets and much happiness. Then comes the night, where you too will sleep, with hopefully, a smile on your face.

Of course the process itself is important too, so to end this let me simply say, enjoy your day people!!

the week

2010-06-24T19:58:00.002+08:00

Went to pixar exhibition on Monday with an old friend. It was not bad. They showed us the process of making the cartoons. I guess it is like what my sis is doing in ADM, animation. Went to see some free fire exhibition at Science centre too. It was cool. I realise I prefer exhibition that are more interactive because it makes you feel more involved.
Was suppose to do mani/pedi with velvet and mariam on Tuesday but I was so tired I overslept. Met them after they did their mani/pedi and now as I am siting in front of the computer typing this out, I can't help but feel the need for one too. Was suppose to go for my TKD training on that Tuesday too because my TKD exam is coming but I did not go in the end.
Will be going for the poverty convention tomorrow and I have to say I am looking forward to it. If I am not wrong it will be held at NUS for all three days.

I don't like routine, surprise me. I feel bad but I think this masquerade should end.

tkd

2010-06-19T03:11:00.002+08:00

Went for TKD training today. I have to say that without the exchange students TKD does feel a little different. Back then when the exchange students were present, the white belt group was really huge. Now that they are gone we have been reduced to about five of us. Nevertheless as long as those few people are still there I will still probably attend TKD because to me it is still fun and interesting and more importantly it is not like I have anything to do on a Friday night, so why not learn some martial arts for self-defence. After today's TKD session, I felt my love for the martial art grow yet again. I am again inspire to watch TKD video and practise my stretching. TKD help me get my mind off other things too.
On an interesting note, I met my secondary school friend at NTU, apparently she was there for her CCA too. Feels good to see old friends.
Oh and there's a mary brown or something at Jurong Point. Hahaha for some odd weird reason it feels good to still go to school during the holidays even if it is just for CCA....yes i do miss NTU!!

LOTR

2010-06-17T23:47:00.004+08:00

Gil-galad was an Elven-king.

Of him the harpers sadly sing:

the last whose realm was fair and free
between the Mountains and the Sea.

His sword was long, his lance was keen,

his shining helm afar was seen;
the countless stars of heaven's field
were mirrored in his silver shield.
But long ago he rode away,
and where he dwelleth none can say;
for into darkness fell his star
in Mordor where the shadows are.

nice peaceful song....beautiful melody~

sec frends

2010-06-17T03:16:00.003+08:00

Went out with my secondary school friends today. It was interesting to catch up with old friends. They all so slim now!!! Omg...i seriously need to lose the weight i gained. Better start on a serious weight losing regime....like seriously.

So simple so nice

liberated

2010-06-16T02:37:00.003+08:00

Today was another great day spent with friends. I feel liberated now that I am pretty sure I know what is it I am feeling. If it was not a holiday my decision would have been clear and fast. However, because of the holidays I actually thought, why not since I don't really have anything to do during the holidays and got myself into one hell on an emotional turmoil and only to realise at the end of this emotional turmoil my answer would have been the clear fast answer I would have given if I was busy with school.

On another note, I feel like writing/drawing a short story. I really want to do a shounen-ai one but I change my mind and decide to probably do a shoujo one instead....simply because shoujo manga don't need much background...hahahaha

2010-06-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

spending feeling like a girl

2010-06-14T14:54:00.005+08:00

Hmmm nothing much to blog about...I am just feeling really frustrated inside. I don't understand myself anymore and I shall not drive myself insane by thinking too much. I can't believe the TKD exam is going to be so soon, why is it always like this? They only give us like 3-4 training before the big exam, don't they know this mean that we don't have enough practises and it makes me stress because after living in Singapore for so long, an exam is an exam. An exam means there is no room for failure, that's how important exams are....at least to me. I am just going to do what I like doing and not think too much about it. Ok....I swear me thinking too much is largely due to the fact that I am sitting at home now with like nothing to do!!! Sighs, at times like this I really do wish I can just travel overseas even if it is just Malaysia.

Finish reading two books!! ^.^

On a random note, I really feel like getting a dress even though I hardly wear one....but they are always almost so lovely. I feel like getting heals, hair accessories, bags, heels...I am feeling girly today.

Shall take a jog later. Yes my fitness level has drop...not surprisingly.

slow down

2010-06-13T00:21:00.003+08:00

Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast -
you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.
-Eddie Cantor

I truly agree with this. Sometimes I really think we are moving too fast. I don't know, but i feel better when I walk slowly, listening to my ipod, looking at my surroundings. Somehow everything feels so surreal. After all, you may never know what you take for granted, may one day be torn down and be replace by something else. Lolss i am not making much sense here but some feelings are really hard to express in words. I only know that I don't want to speed through life, rushing here and there only to realise one day that you have not been living life but simply rushing through it.

Went for TKD training yesterday. Been a long time since I went and honestly, I thought I might stop/quit...after all I have always had the problem of not being committed. However, a few friends of mine from TKD msg me asking me to come for yesterday's training because our next exam is coming in July. I was glad I went because it was as fun as it was when I first went there.

friends

2010-06-11T02:02:00.004+08:00

Today, I learnt yet again the meaning of friendship. I am never the kind who express my gratitude openly. Deep in my heart I really appreciate them and meeting them week after week always make me happy and I always look forward to their company. I truly appreciate the fact that they are willing to sit and listen to my worries and concerns that are lame. I appreciate the fact that they msg, that they show that they appreciate my company, that they remember that I exist. I appreciate the fact that they were willing to chat with me online till 6am, to reassure me especially because I am really a noob when it comes to certain things. I appreciate the fact that they are able to make me laugh real hard. It is because of them that my jc and uni life is one in which I really enjoy! And because it hard for me to express this openly, I shall express it in this blog post of mine.

p.s looking forward to this Saturday & sentosa. Even if sentosa don't happen we can always hang out elsewhere =)

change of blogskin

2010-06-11T01:17:00.005+08:00

I like this new blogskin. Somehow it gives off a bright and happy feeling. The previous blogskin felt a little cramp.

Will be going for TKD training tomorrow. Went out with the uni gals on Tuesday and bought 3 books...I can't seem to not buy books..they just attract me. I swear I buy books faster than I can read them. So far I have only read finish two of the books I bought.
Went out wit gil and sarah yesterday. Drank koi and I am happy to say I am satisfied with it.
I wish school is in progress so I don't need to think so much. I guess deep in my heart I know that I am afraid. I am afraid that if I choose to wait, I might end up waiting all my life. Is it really better to wait for something or someone that will perhaps never come.

Come to think of it....it is not really the heart, the heart is just an organ that keeps you alive the one that you really consult with is your brain.....but to mention the brain instead of the heart somehow feels very anti-climatic

Quite a depressing picture but I love her dress.

this is the last time

2010-06-08T09:31:00.002+08:00

I suddenly have this urge to change blog....but this blog has been following me for years. Sighs..I don't know...should I or should I not change blog? Or perhaps I can just have a change of blog skin. Hmmm

Will be meeting uni peeps later. Feels good to wake up early in the morning. I like the feeling. My favourite time of the day is between 12am to 12pm. Very late or very early. The peacefulness of the morning helps me think. Even though more often than not I get nowhere with all this thinking.

I really wish that Singapore have 4 seasons.....

RUN

2010-06-04T23:51:00.007+08:00

Went running today with gil and sis. Met Michelle at serangoon stadium...... was super shock to see her there. It was so cute how she and her family were there together at the stadium for an exercise. Ran 2.4km and walk the other two rounds. Meeting the jc peeps tomorrow at Orchard...I am getting bored of town but town is the nearest so oh well...

Will be walking down memory lane next week with some good old friends...can't wait!!

Results are out and mine was really shitty...at least I can move on to next year. Life continues.

Yes...this is a cake!! freaking amazing!!!

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!