While, it has been a long time since I last post anything. Currently still in school but I will be graduating sometime next year and will be entering the dreadful working world.
Honestly, I have all these dreams but yesterday I felt this sense of  helplessness. What if I won't be able to achieve or do the things I want? What if no matter how hard I work I will never succeed? What if I was just meant to be another normal human being walking on the surface of this earth? I guess late nights always have this tendency to get you thinking too much....making one emo and such.

I have an essay due on Monday but considering the low word count of 1.5k needed I decided to go for a jog instead and I felt better during and after the run. There is something about exercising I guess it makes you feel better. I know it is scientifically proven and such but to really FEEL is something altogether.

Anyway, I don't know if this will be my last post on this blog or what. I mean wow I have had this blog for 6 years. Gosh that's long.

I guess when I want to rant away from public eyes I can always rant on this blog because I doubt anyone reads this blog anymore hahahaha

I have largely move to tumblr but it is not as personal as this one is. I mean I just reblog posts. Posts that I find interesting, inspiring or when I just want to fangirl over actors/shows and such. But if you are still curious here's the link - http://complextruth.tumblr.com/
(Feel free to follow me hahahaha I would probably follow you back ^.^)

Feels rather good to finally achieve what I have tried so hard to achieve. Especially considering the fact that I don't really bother working hard for anything....too much half hearted effort.
To put in the effort and see it bear fruits...well it really is a nice feeling =)

in life...

If you really want it and really fight for it, you may get it. However, even then you may not get exactly everything and sometimes in life you just have to settle for at least half of what you fought for.

skyrim

Exams are over!!! (like a week ago)
Have been doing nothing much but gaming

Current game that I am playing:


Really excellent game and very very addictive if I must say so myself

One of the things I like to do in this game is to sit in the tavern and listen to the bard sing.
One of my favourite songs:

Age of Aggression

We drink to our youth, to days come and gone
For the age of aggression is just about done
We’ll drive out the Stormcloaks and restore what we own
With our blood and our steel we’ll take back our home
Down with Ulfric the killer of kings
On the day of your death we’ll drink and we’ll sing
We’re the children of Skyrim, and we fight all our lives
And when Sovngarde beckons, every one of us dies!
But this land is ours and we’ll see it wiped clean
Of the scourge that has sullied our hopes and our dreams


Kind of realise that I have the tendency to blog only occasionally after the end of every semester.
I am suppose to learn driving this holiday but I am soooooo lazy..sighs..
Still, i need to force myself to get this driving thing over and done with....

Now that the holidays are here I am suppose to be running a lot more so that I actually lose weight before the new year~ let's see how strong my determination is i guess..

moving? nah not really

Have not been updating this blog.
Alright here goes.

I just recently sign up for a wordpress account. I am still trying to find my around wordpress.. I am not very good with things unfamiliar. I suppose to those reading, the question is...Am I then leaving/quiting blogger? Well the answer is no. This blog is strictly for personal use and for bored (?) friends to read. As I have mentioned in an earlier posts this blog is for more than anything, myself.

In this tavern of life I just write whatever I feel like writing letting the words flow through me as I typed them out...explains the haphazard way every post seem to be. Jumping from one point to another.
Anyway, my wordpress will be more about my opinions on stuff or stories etc.. not really about my personal life at all but blogger will still be more about my personal stuff. Furthermore, I won't really bother correcting grammatical error or use better phrases in my blogger account...as i have mentioned I am just typing as the words flow through me.

Anyway, recently I joined a new cca - tchoukball! It is fun and the game/ sports is supposedly designed/invented by someone who wanted to create a sport that would supposedly result in less injury but for some odd reason, I seem to be injured more than ever in comparison to other sports that I have joined. It has been slightly more than week but my little finger has not fully heal...on the bright side the swelling has really gone down.

Ok I better head off to sleep now have a presentation first thing in the morning tomorrow...seriously cant wait to get it over and done with.

nightrunner series

I am currently on book 2 of the Nightrunner series and I have to say the book is extremely enjoyable!! So much so that I have to force myself to read slower because I don't want to finish the book so quickly but it is so hard to read slowly when the book is this good!!!
This is one of those books that keeps me thinking about the characters, events, the amazing world crafted by the author etc.. long after I have force myself to close the book in order to get my nightly sleep.

practicum

Five weeks of practicum is over!!! YESSS!! It was not as dreadful as previously anticipated.

Hopefully I will be able to learn from my experience and do better in the future.

I realise that I need to think more about the whole 'teaching' thing especially since I realise that it is actually relatively enjoyable. I need to think more about why I would like to continue teaching and the message I would like to pass to my students in the future. As cliche as all this sound, I believe it is really important and I definitely need to think deeply and seriously about it.

Currently playing or rather finish playing -

Dragon Age 2

AND.....

Dragon Age: Origins

Both are AWESOME game I swear!! I know a lot of other gamers think that DA:O is better but I really love DA2!! I am sure there are some gamers out there who really do prefer DA:O but I can't help but feel that most who claim DA2 is not as fun or great are really just teenagers trying to act cool and follow the supposed majority opinion.

I have completed both DA:O and DA2 and found both game entertaining and fun. They both have their flaws and their plus points and I guess as to which game is better....well ultimately it boils down to personal opinion.

Will be playing this game soon, I just bought it a few days back...

ALICE : madness returns!

Book that I am currently reading...

Luck in the Shadows, book I of the Nightrunner series! It is a super exciting fast paced fantasy story. I just seem to get out of the historical fiction or fantasy genre when it comes to books....and yet I like to delude myself into thinking that I am well read...sighs..delusions delusions...