responsibility

I remember there was this one day where I stayed over at my TKD friend's hall. One of them was rather pissed and upset because some of the people who promised that they will come did not turn up in the end. I remember her telling us how tired she was but that she still turn up because she said that she will come. It make sense to me and ever since then when I have given my word to someone that I will turn up for something, I will try my best to do it. I may not turn up all the time, but truth to be told I will always try my best to turn up.
It is funny how she's not my very good friend or anything but somehow what she said really made an impression on me. I agree with her very much. I think that if you promise someone you will be there, you should really try your best to be there. Of course there are times where you won't be able to make it because of other commitments but I really think one of the worst thing you can do is say that you will be free on that day and in the end calling in to say you can't make it.
This may be a small thing but I think when you have given your word you should really keep it. It is really common courtesy and a simple responsibility.
Oddly enough or not, I used to be one of those but after what that girl said on that night, I realise that I should try my best to change, to be a women of my word. Hahahahahaha
Anyway, this post is not directed to anyone just my opinion, based on previous experience as well as based on other people's experience. Like all human I am pretty sure there were times when I am guilty of that as well.

I watched Lie to me today and I like it!! I am liking NCIS too!! Hahahaha it is something like CSI but it is not CSI it is NCIS HAHAHAHAHA XD


Distant world




Got it from deviant art. I think it is very beautiful.

reflection

I think this has been by far the most busy and fruitful holiday I have ever had. Meeting up with my different group of friends, participating in event and even trying new things like playing the violin. Looking at my schedule, July seem to be a rather heavy month for me with TKD trainings and exam, another convention, meranti training, green club related activities, school internship and of course hanging out with good company. I never knew being busy somehow feels good...maybe this is what they meant by good stress... despite having lots of activities, it is still manageable and actually make you feel alive.

Ever since I can remember I have always been the kind who would not bother with such things..i was the kid who found cca a waste of time. I like the idea of just waking up with nothing to do...hahaha actually I still like the idea of waking up with nothing to do...but not every single morning till the holiday end that will just kill me. My principle in life was easy and probably common, study hard, do well, get into a local uni, graduate, get a good pay that will be able to finance my travel. But when I finally reach NTU or more specifically NIE, i realise I wanted more in life and so life just got a little more complicated for me. Hahaha or so I like to think.

I like reading my previous posts in this blog, I actually realise that I change...my priorities change. To me that it is a good thing because it shows that I am growing as a person and there's character development. My sis was telling me that a good book/show have characters that go through something called character development. A character that is the same from the beginning to the end reflects the failing of a book/show because it tells the audience that the experience that the protagonist went was redundant and that in truth nothing really happen.

Maybe in the future when I read back on this post I will laugh. Hahahahahaha!! well whatever, to be able to laugh is a good thing too! Hheheheheh XD

Ah yes, a simple cup of coffee.

Drinking a cup of coffee always perks me up. =)

closing GK

I actually did enjoy shopping for formal clothes today...a pleasant surprise. Went for the closing ceremony for the convention this morning. If feels so good to wake up around 7am and actually have somewhere to go. I do love the morning...it is just that more often than not I don't have the discipline to get out of bed.

photos credit to mariam

Hahahaha the word delegate just make it sound so cool. lolssss
I really like the ambiance of the tom & tom cafe. Shall wait for alfie to post the pictures.

GK global summit

Went for the Gawad Kalinga global summit yesterday and today. It is a three day conference that ends tomorrow. After today I swear whenever I feel that lecture is too long and that I can't take it I will think about this summit. I mean if I can survive this summit I am pretty sure I can survive lectures. I think we sat through 6 hours of lecture. It was not bad though, I did get to learn something and for what it's worth, at least I know more about GK and how it really did help those who are in poverty. They are still on their journey to eradicate poverty but I saw true effort from this people, giving up jobs that paid more for something that is more fulfilling, volunteering their weekends, really admirable. On another note, i think it is sad to learn that some people attend such summit to make their resume more colourful...i mean how idiotic can you be. I hope at least even if you one of those in for a colourful resume, you did feel for humanity and truly want to give back in the future. Personally, I went because I hardly go for such things and I wanted to learn more, to know more.
The whole GK summit started at 9am and ended at 7:30pm. Kind of got lost in NUS for awhile but eventually we made it out and found our way home hahahahaha. Before entering uni I had a dream and now that I am in uni, I forgot that dream. It is dream that I swear every or at least almost every student has....I think it is a dream shared by almost every Singaporean students. Anyway, after talking to Alfie and Christ more about school and stuff, I realise I need to get my priority right yet again, I guess I was a little distracted when I entered uni so it is time to get back on track and of course enjoy uni life!! Woots!

For some odd reason, I could not stop laughing after drinking a cup of tea today, I found almost anything and everything funny....how odd....
Toms Toms (?) cafe was a nice and peaceful place to just drink coffee and chit chat.
I am sorry, but I shall disappear...
Going to this summit with Mariam and Alfie have been great!!! =)

think about it

JUST WHO WILL YOU BE?

Everyone's life
Is an uncharted course
So go out and live it
Without regret or remorse

As you go down one road
And don't like what you find
Remember it's OK
To just change your mind

Doing only what's easy
Won't break you a sweat
But you also won't learn
Lessons you need to get

The lessons will teach you
What you need to know
To find out who you'll be
And which way you'll go


Will you be a person
Who’s running on greed?
Or will you be the one giving
To people in need?

Will you just collect awards
To put on your shelves?
Or will you help people
Who can’t help themselves?

Think of using your brains
And your talent and youth
To solve difficult problems
To find out the truth

To make this crazy world
A far better place
To make some improvements
For our human race

JUST WHO WILL YOU BE?
That’s the question for you

~ Maria Shriver

The actual poem is much longer. I just took the stanza that really and truly inspired me. The whole poem IS really inspiring but these are the few quotes that somehow speak to me. Well, i better sleep now or I will be late for tomorrows convention on poverty.

Anyway, I got the poem from here: - http://christine-livepassionately.blogspot.com/2008/06/just-who-will-you-be.html

life

Life

I have seen this picture somewhere before and decide to re-post it.

Morning brings a mystery, the evening makes it history. I guess it kinds of match the picture and I shall state the obvious for my own sake. The morning is like the youth of one's life, where your life is still largely a mystery because you don't know how you will spend it, live it. In the evening, you look back at your 'day', thinking if the process was a worthwhile experience. I guess the evening is always the hardest especially if the people who went through the 'day' with you falls asleep earlier and I guess it gets lonely. In the evening you sit down and think about your 'day', whether it was really a 'day' well spent, a 'day' with few regrets and much happiness. Then comes the night, where you too will sleep, with hopefully, a smile on your face.

Of course the process itself is important too, so to end this let me simply say, enjoy your day people!!

the week

Went to pixar exhibition on Monday with an old friend. It was not bad. They showed us the process of making the cartoons. I guess it is like what my sis is doing in ADM, animation. Went to see some free fire exhibition at Science centre too. It was cool. I realise I prefer exhibition that are more interactive because it makes you feel more involved.
Was suppose to do mani/pedi with velvet and mariam on Tuesday but I was so tired I overslept. Met them after they did their mani/pedi and now as I am siting in front of the computer typing this out, I can't help but feel the need for one too. Was suppose to go for my TKD training on that Tuesday too because my TKD exam is coming but I did not go in the end.
Will be going for the poverty convention tomorrow and I have to say I am looking forward to it. If I am not wrong it will be held at NUS for all three days.

I don't like routine, surprise me. I feel bad but I think this masquerade should end.

tkd

Went for TKD training today. I have to say that without the exchange students TKD does feel a little different. Back then when the exchange students were present, the white belt group was really huge. Now that they are gone we have been reduced to about five of us. Nevertheless as long as those few people are still there I will still probably attend TKD because to me it is still fun and interesting and more importantly it is not like I have anything to do on a Friday night, so why not learn some martial arts for self-defence. After today's TKD session, I felt my love for the martial art grow yet again. I am again inspire to watch TKD video and practise my stretching. TKD help me get my mind off other things too.
On an interesting note, I met my secondary school friend at NTU, apparently she was there for her CCA too. Feels good to see old friends.
Oh and there's a mary brown or something at Jurong Point. Hahaha for some odd weird reason it feels good to still go to school during the holidays even if it is just for CCA....yes i do miss NTU!!

LOTR

Gil-galad was an Elven-king.

Of him the harpers sadly sing:

the last whose realm was fair and free
between the Mountains and the Sea.

His sword was long, his lance was keen,

his shining helm afar was seen;
the countless stars of heaven's field
were mirrored in his silver shield.
But long ago he rode away,
and where he dwelleth none can say;
for into darkness fell his star
in Mordor where the shadows are.

nice peaceful song....beautiful melody~

sec frends

Went out with my secondary school friends today. It was interesting to catch up with old friends. They all so slim now!!! Omg...i seriously need to lose the weight i gained. Better start on a serious weight losing regime....like seriously.


So simple so nice

liberated

Today was another great day spent with friends. I feel liberated now that I am pretty sure I know what is it I am feeling. If it was not a holiday my decision would have been clear and fast. However, because of the holidays I actually thought, why not since I don't really have anything to do during the holidays and got myself into one hell on an emotional turmoil and only to realise at the end of this emotional turmoil my answer would have been the clear fast answer I would have given if I was busy with school.

On another note, I feel like writing/drawing a short story. I really want to do a shounen-ai one but I change my mind and decide to probably do a shoujo one instead....simply because shoujo manga don't need much background...hahahaha

spending feeling like a girl

Hmmm nothing much to blog about...I am just feeling really frustrated inside. I don't understand myself anymore and I shall not drive myself insane by thinking too much. I can't believe the TKD exam is going to be so soon, why is it always like this? They only give us like 3-4 training before the big exam, don't they know this mean that we don't have enough practises and it makes me stress because after living in Singapore for so long, an exam is an exam. An exam means there is no room for failure, that's how important exams are....at least to me. I am just going to do what I like doing and not think too much about it. Ok....I swear me thinking too much is largely due to the fact that I am sitting at home now with like nothing to do!!! Sighs, at times like this I really do wish I can just travel overseas even if it is just Malaysia.

Finish reading two books!! ^.^

On a random note, I really feel like getting a dress even though I hardly wear one....but they are always almost so lovely. I feel like getting heals, hair accessories, bags, heels...I am feeling girly today.

Shall take a jog later. Yes my fitness level has drop...not surprisingly.

slow down

Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast -
you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.
-Eddie Cantor

I truly agree with this. Sometimes I really think we are moving too fast. I don't know, but i feel better when I walk slowly, listening to my ipod, looking at my surroundings. Somehow everything feels so surreal. After all, you may never know what you take for granted, may one day be torn down and be replace by something else. Lolss i am not making much sense here but some feelings are really hard to express in words. I only know that I don't want to speed through life, rushing here and there only to realise one day that you have not been living life but simply rushing through it.

Went for TKD training yesterday. Been a long time since I went and honestly, I thought I might stop/quit...after all I have always had the problem of not being committed. However, a few friends of mine from TKD msg me asking me to come for yesterday's training because our next exam is coming in July. I was glad I went because it was as fun as it was when I first went there.

friends

Today, I learnt yet again the meaning of friendship. I am never the kind who express my gratitude openly. Deep in my heart I really appreciate them and meeting them week after week always make me happy and I always look forward to their company. I truly appreciate the fact that they are willing to sit and listen to my worries and concerns that are lame. I appreciate the fact that they msg, that they show that they appreciate my company, that they remember that I exist. I appreciate the fact that they were willing to chat with me online till 6am, to reassure me especially because I am really a noob when it comes to certain things. I appreciate the fact that they are able to make me laugh real hard. It is because of them that my jc and uni life is one in which I really enjoy! And because it hard for me to express this openly, I shall express it in this blog post of mine.

p.s looking forward to this Saturday & sentosa. Even if sentosa don't happen we can always hang out elsewhere =)

change of blogskin

I like this new blogskin. Somehow it gives off a bright and happy feeling. The previous blogskin felt a little cramp.

Will be going for TKD training tomorrow. Went out with the uni gals on Tuesday and bought 3 books...I can't seem to not buy books..they just attract me. I swear I buy books faster than I can read them. So far I have only read finish two of the books I bought.
Went out wit gil and sarah yesterday. Drank koi and I am happy to say I am satisfied with it.
I wish school is in progress so I don't need to think so much. I guess deep in my heart I know that I am afraid. I am afraid that if I choose to wait, I might end up waiting all my life. Is it really better to wait for something or someone that will perhaps never come.

Come to think of it....it is not really the heart, the heart is just an organ that keeps you alive the one that you really consult with is your brain.....but to mention the brain instead of the heart somehow feels very anti-climatic

Quite a depressing picture but I love her dress.

this is the last time

I suddenly have this urge to change blog....but this blog has been following me for years. Sighs..I don't know...should I or should I not change blog? Or perhaps I can just have a change of blog skin. Hmmm

Will be meeting uni peeps later. Feels good to wake up early in the morning. I like the feeling. My favourite time of the day is between 12am to 12pm. Very late or very early. The peacefulness of the morning helps me think. Even though more often than not I get nowhere with all this thinking.

I really wish that Singapore have 4 seasons.....

RUN

Went running today with gil and sis. Met Michelle at serangoon stadium...... was super shock to see her there. It was so cute how she and her family were there together at the stadium for an exercise. Ran 2.4km and walk the other two rounds. Meeting the jc peeps tomorrow at Orchard...I am getting bored of town but town is the nearest so oh well...

Will be walking down memory lane next week with some good old friends...can't wait!!

Results are out and mine was really shitty...at least I can move on to next year. Life continues.

Yes...this is a cake!! freaking amazing!!!

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!

let's see

Went out today. It was fun. Don't feel like typing more but if you are close enough to me I will probably talk to you about it or actually sometimes I just don't really like talking to people about this kind of things. Smiling is my motto. Lolsss sounds like I am depress or sad or something haha I am not. It is just that...I don't know.... I like my current life now and I am not in a hurry to change it, to experience emotions that will just make me confuse because I am the kind of girl who likes her mind to be in control.

Damn it i really wish to get this holiday over and done with so that I can go back to school!!! I like studying...i just really hate exams.

cakes!

The cake is freaking amazing and so so very pretty!!! Looking at this cake seriously makes me wanna bake!! Maybe I should try cooking too since all I ever cook before is fried egg and maybe maggie mee. LOLSSS I doubt I will ever get around cooking though...if I ever do I shall post picture of my 'masterpiece' hahahahaha

btw, this picture does not belong to me. I don't know who baked this but it is so beautiful!!!!



The flowers are like made of sugars... the details...simply amazing!!

sgh

Went to SGH today to visit mummy. It was suppose to be a day surgery but the doctor say it will be better to check her in for one night. I am just glad that the surgery went smoothly. I don't really like going to the hospital and I know that the health care industry is something that I will definitely not join. Somehow is just does not appeal to me probably because of its association with illness. Luckily my mum was in the maternity ward. I think is about the only place in the hospital I don't mind. Saw a few new born babies and despite their irritating cries it still brighten up my day. I mean it looked so tiny!! It is so very rare that I actually see new born baby!! So tiny so frail so weak...ah new life. The nurses were very friendly too. I have a good impression of this NYP trainee nurse. While the health care industry does not appeal to me I do respect people who are in it, be it nurses or doctors etc.. it is indeed a very honourable job and not everyone can do it. Health is after all more important than money.